why?

everything makes me wonder why is it that wen you want something but you know you won't get it. all you do is wonder. something like that is with me. i always imagined a family with a father , a mother. but maybe things are never meant to be. i know there are ppl who love me lot but then i think to myself even if there are ppl my life is still not the same. everyday wen i look at a mother showing affection it just hurts. knowng that it would be for me. maybe i expect alot. all i want is few words of wisdom. i want someone to tell me that you are a part of my life. to tell me that they love me and that they are here for me. to hug me. wenever i see my aunt showing affection i sit there looking and just wondering y someone can't be like that to me.is it that my whole life would be just end up wondering.i know i have my grandmother but till wen.. life is never going to change. i will still miss my mother all along. it is frustrating wen you see someone hugging there child while you are sitting there watching like a show is going on. i am not complaining but it hurts. nobody will ever understand how i feel. yes my uncle loves me , wen he shows affection to his daughters he does to me he makes me feel special and that it makes me feel that yes i am there and that i am not left out. it makes me wonder why i went through wat i went through was it in my destiny or was it something that was giving me a signal of starting a new life with a family where i will get all the happiness but still feel not happy y? y is it that wen you think you are happy but you are not. noone has a perfect life? answer to all these questions will remain unanswered and will make me wonder always!!